Suicide

i'm lost in this pandemonium, trapped in this bottomless pit. i gazed at the abyss, wandered. i'm in this never ending circle. i walked forward, straight forward..

i'm exhausted...
i sat...
waited... thirst and hunger creeping up but i try not to think about it...

with this deafening silence... in this pitch black chasm... i remembered my life, passing...
sigh...

then i noticed something... a speck of light... how could i not notice this earlier?
i stood up... walked.. towards the light..

odd, as i drew nearer, i see another speck of light.. maybe this one's further, a guide perhaps?
i continued my walk..

i stopped, two flames are there, side by side, the other dimmer.. i walked..
towards the brighter light... as i was an inch away, the light blinding me, i saw the dimmer light changed form.. something beautiful was coming out, almost like it was like a cocoon.. this dim flame, it hides beneath it an angel... but it's too late, the brighter flame has consumed my eyes and i can no longer see the beauty of what has come out of that dim flame.. and i fell.. back to the abyss, back to hell.. the light was no longer there..

i sat..
waiting.. hungry and thirsty.. i closed my eyes.. hoping to fall into an eternal slumber... without dreams or nightmares.. away from this harsh reality...